June is a pivotal month in this blogger's life. Here is yet another list of all the happenings...
-I graduate and will finally be done with my Master's Degree..
-I will (hopefully) start my new job.
-My husband and I will start looking to buy a house.
So if this list does not serve as an excuse for the lack of postings, I do not know what will. I knew that the months from January to June would prove to be extra stressful, but I also counted on my daily zazen sittings to help me through this stage. The truth is my sittings have been disgraceful. Sometimes I go two to three days before I actually sit, and when I do finally sit, it is as if I have never sat before and I have to start from the very beginning. It is very frustrating and I cannot see my way out of this forest that is filled with guilt and endless beginners sittings.
I have made a promise that I will find the time and space to sit tomorrow. I do not want to think about Wednesday, Thursday, or this weekend. Just tomorrow.
In gassho.
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